i'm just a kid.

okay guys..
Today, i just want to share my feelings on what happen to my life.. 
I have someone that i can be open to but sometimes he just can't take what the thoughts i want to share. So, here am I writing in here so that i can express what i feel lately..
Somehow.. i felt like i'm just a little kid who doesn't have any aim or dream in her life.. its just happened to be like that because one by one plan and dream that i had planned turn out to be nothing. one by one the dream that i once hold it slowly become unclear.. i don't know what i'm talking about right now.. but i know.. maybe my luck haven't come yet. i believe there are more people like me aimlessly live not knowing what to do. when i take a look at my friends, my family there are all grown up except me. i don't even know myself what path do i have to take.. or what path do i have to look at,, everything seems blur and impossible.. why i have to live my life like this? i also didn't know. Deep inside my heart.. when I saw everyone else succeed.. i'm just too broken hearted not knowing what i want to do or what i can do. i guess i'm still a little kid. I want to have a faith in me but somehow it was so difficult that i could not stand at. What am i supposed to do? i'm pitying myself. i feel sad about myself. Why i have to become like this? i guess its true that i'm just a kid. 

to him,

i'm sorry for everything.. sometimes its just so hard to endure my feelings.. i know you will always be there for me.. but sometimes.. i know when i share my thoughts, you will feel sad and tension more than me. thats why i possibly want to ease your pressure. I'm sorry.. i love you.. thank you for everything.. You always say 'don't be sad. It is not worth it.' i know it is not worth it but i felt eased when i let my feelings flow rather than i close it. i want you to know.. because of you, i can still endure anything that happen to me.. even the saddest things in my life. because i know.. you will always be there for me.. thank you for bringing such a great happiness in my life.. you are worthy to me. thank you for always trying to get along with me, understanding me, bringing the strength out of me.. you are the only one that i'm sure i will die if you walk out from my life..  You are my everything.. i love you..

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when you're gone..


i dedicated this song to my best buddy ever : Khairunisa Izzati Marhaimi (KIMICA)

When i hear this song, I miss you.. we used to hear it together.. we used to have a good time together.. I love you izzati.. 

I pray for your happiness.. missing you so much.. saranghe




 when you're gone.. the pieces of my heart are missing you
when you're gone the face i came to know is missing too..

missing you my best friend.. 

ica..

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birthday preview: ery

ke hadapan ery saya yang saya sayang,,

saya harap awak sihat..
lately awak sgt2 bz.. sye tahu... saya doakan dan harapkn yg terbaik untuk awak..
sya x tau nak tulis ape sempena birthday awak yang akan datang nanti..
so, sye sedia satu hadiah untuk awak.. sye harap awak akan terharu.. 
untuk hari ni, sye akan bagi hadiah preview dulu.. 
syg awak...

tadi saya singgah kedai kek yg awak pernah pergi untuk belikn sye kek,, 
sye tgok22.. eh adela jenis design kek yg awak pernah beli kat sye.. wah.. terimbau kenangn lama..
sye x pernah berkesempatan nak celebrate birthday awak sama-sama..
bile lah peluang tu akan smpai kn??
sedih pulak.. tapi x pe.. sye yakin stu hari, sye akan buat awak special birthday party yg awak akan ingt smpai bila22.. sye syg awak..

awak,, sempena birthday awak yg akan dtg ni,, sye nak ucapkn selamat hari ulangtahun kelahiran yg ke 23..
awak dah 23 tau.. dah tua.. sye muda lagi.. heheheh... 
thank you sebab dengan kehadiran awak di sisi saya, sye dapat bgun dari kegelapan, kesukaran yg sye pernah hadapi dulu..
kerana awak, biarpun ia sesuatu kenangn pahit, tapi kerana awak, ia jadi sesuatu yg indah...
kerana awak, sye dpt cri diri sye yg hilang dulu.. dan sye dpt jadi diri sye smula..
kerana awak, sye tahu erti setia,, erti jujur.. erti percaya, erti pengorbanan..
kerana awak, sye merase sedikit kebhagiaan yg susah sye nak dpat..
kerana awak, hidup sye dpt diteruskan kerana sokongn awak..
kerana awak, sye dpt terus bersabar dan berusaha demi masa depan..
kerana awak, sye lebih menyayangi diri sye,,
kerana awak, sye menjadi seorang yg penyayang..

terima kasih.. terima kasih.. terima kasih,,

selama 6 tahun kita kenal, sye x pernah berkesempatan celebrate birthday awak.. sye terkilan..
tapi sye tahu,, stu masa nanti sye pasti dpt sambut bersama dgn awak..

kelahiran, kehadiran awak telah mengisi hidup sye.. terima kasih..

saya rindu awak.. sye syg awak.. 



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layan lagu..

huhuhu.. ari ni nak melayan merepek..

hatiku hatimu
menjadi satu cinta..
kurasa hadirmu
menyempurnakan aku..

tapi..
cinta bukan milik kita..
semua harus berakhir..

cinta kau dan aku..
takkan mungkin bersatu
untuk saat ini
di dunia ini
mungkin kita bersama
nanti di atas sana
biar ku setia 
menjaga cintamu....
selamanya...


mengapa cinta kita selalu
sahaja diduga
bagai ada x merestu
kita berdua bersatu

atau mungkin kau dan aku
ditakdir untuk berpisah..
walaupun melawan arus
kita berdua bersatu

seringkali ku mendengar
patah tumbuh hilang berganti
tetapi ku tidak mahu
cinta selain drimu

jika dengan mu salah
ku tak mahu yg benar
jika denganmu rebah 
biarlah ku tercalar

walau dilanda badai 
kusanggup kerna ku mampu
kita berdua bersatu..

jika dengan mu kabur 
kutak mahu yg jelas
jika denganmu hanyut
biarlah aku lemas

walau dilanda ribut 
ku sanggup kerna ku mampu
kita berdua bersatu


uri saranghaetjana jebal nal ullijima 
ojik naegen no hanappunya 
nuneul gamado boyeo 
gwireul magadeo deullyeo 
jebal nal ttonagajima

(we were in love, please don't make me cry)
( To me, you're my only)
( When I close my eyes, i see you, When I block my ears, i hear you)

(Please don't leave me)

eoduwotdeon nae sarme 

bichi dweojun saram, 

neomuna seojunghan saram
haru jinago, tto jinado, 

deo geuriwojyeo, 
I norael haneun jigeumdeo

(the person who becomes a light)
(in my dark life)
(such a precious person)
(a day passes, and another passes)
(and long for you more)
(even as i sing this song)


uri saranghaetjana jebal nal ullijima 
ojik naegen no hanappunya 
nuneul gamado boyeo 
gwireul magadeo deullyeo 
jebal nal ttonagajima




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